"May the God of Hope fill you with all Joy & Peace as you trust in Him so that you may overflow with
HOPE by the power of the Holy Spirit" Romans 15:13

Monday, May 30, 2016

Heading Back to Zambia & Staring Fear in the Face

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world give.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” 
John 14:27

I am getting on a plane in 10 days to head back to Zambia!  This is a place that has my heart and has been a place that has brought great excitement and joy in my life despite the harsh conditions there.  Since coming back from Zambia in January, I have had a hard time getting excited about this upcoming trip because of the fear that has crept in.  Each day, the phone call of my mom’s voice plays in my head that my grandmother is gone, which causes me to re-live standing in my room in Zambia in complete and utter shock and heartbreak!  I can vividly see every detail still; what I was wearing, what I was doing, and the friends that came into my room to comfort me. 

Fear has never been something associated with me going to Zambia until now.  I have been battling fear of something major happening again while I am gone as this upcoming trip approaches.  I know that fear is not from the Lord and I ask that you all pray for me as I get on that plane 10 days from now.  Through it all though, I will say that my relationship with the Lord is on a deeper level and for that I am so grateful.  I have always “known” that the Lord will carry you through anything, but to truly live that is a whole other feeling.  I now know firsthand what it feels like to only be able to function because He carried me through each day!  I still can say “It is Well” and I know that no matter what happens while I am gone, the Lord is good and He will never leave my side.  I am thankful that the Lord takes heartbreak and makes something good from it…every single time! 
I appreciate all of the prayers you lift up each and every time that I go to Zambia.  Here are some specific things that I would appreciate prayers for as I am preparing to leave as well as while I am there. 
       1.       That they Lord would be glorified in all that I and our team do in the schools
       2.       That I would lean on the Lord and hear His voice in each step and step out in faith
       3.       That our team would be cohesive and bond quickly
       4.       That the teachers we are working with would be receptive and excited about working together
       5.       That if there are children in immediate need the Lord would put a spotlight on them as we are in          the schools
       6.       That no matter what the Devil throws our way (which he always tries something) we would                 quickly recognize it and press into the Lord
       7.       That we would remember that no matter what obstacles we come against, God called each of us           there for a reason
       8.       That we would be safe in our travels and that our entire team would stay healthy
       9.       That I would have an open heart, eyes, and ears for what God wants me to do while I am there
      10.     That fear wouldn’t prevent anything that the Lord has already set in motion.

 Thank you again for your continuous support!  I could not return each year without every one of you and although most of you will never go to Zambia, you are such a big part of what is going on there through your support.  I wish I could capture the sounds, smells, and joy in the pictures I take to bring back to you.  It is such a blessing that the Lord has called me back again and I am expectantly waiting to see what He will do once again in the teachers, kids, and me.  I love each one of you so much!  Allison